[ he looks down like even his eyes are weighed with guilt. but he doesn't flinch, or look surprised. ]
...We know. [ EVERYONE KNOWS ] I don't want to kill people, thinking that they'd be missed the least. But we all saw her grief. I know it's our fault.
[ he knew nahri would be hurting after this, too. there would always be someone. he was never going to choose a target based on how easily forgotten they would be. it never once crossed his mind that fei du was unloved. ]
...After trial, I was angry. Not about whether you'd killed. Not that people were upset. Just that, if you had—I had those thoughts. That someone could use that hurt and distract from all the other murders. And it made me mad because— [ ... ] I've done a lot of bad things now. But I've never used my feelings for Rin like that.
... All we can do is theorize here because I'm not Nahri and I can't say with confidence why she acted how she did. What I know is that if we killed, she wouldn't have known. If she got to that conclusion and took it upon herself toward the end, then she left that out when we talked to her about her behavior earlier. It could have been a part of it when Ylfa spotlighted Wolfwood's lighter... but...
[ Well, as he said, he only knows as much as Nahri told him. ]
I wish Wolfwood and I weren't going through it with our apathy stuff so we could have better consoled and handled her.
[ Just runs his fingers through his hair, weary and emotionally spent. ]
She doesn't think any of you want to talk to her. [ IT WOULD JUST BE TWO, VERY SOON. ] Being the middleman is kinda hard and awful.
[ ...some of the tension in him drains, just a little, before he nods. even if it's speculation, he's probably right. he shouldn't be out here assuming the worst of someone anyway.
he goes quiet when the hurt and confusion settles a bit, letting out a deep, slow breath. ]
Yeah. Sorry. But I don't think she wants to talk to me either.
[ so vash is gonna have to be the one stuck in the middle!! he is not communicative enough to try and fix this situation. ]
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...We know. [ EVERYONE KNOWS ] I don't want to kill people, thinking that they'd be missed the least. But we all saw her grief. I know it's our fault.
[ he knew nahri would be hurting after this, too. there would always be someone. he was never going to choose a target based on how easily forgotten they would be. it never once crossed his mind that fei du was unloved. ]
...After trial, I was angry. Not about whether you'd killed. Not that people were upset. Just that, if you had—I had those thoughts. That someone could use that hurt and distract from all the other murders. And it made me mad because— [ ... ] I've done a lot of bad things now. But I've never used my feelings for Rin like that.
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[ Well, as he said, he only knows as much as Nahri told him. ]
I wish Wolfwood and I weren't going through it with our apathy stuff so we could have better consoled and handled her.
[ Just runs his fingers through his hair, weary and emotionally spent. ]
She doesn't think any of you want to talk to her. [ IT WOULD JUST BE TWO, VERY SOON. ] Being the middleman is kinda hard and awful.
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he goes quiet when the hurt and confusion settles a bit, letting out a deep, slow breath. ]
Yeah. Sorry. But I don't think she wants to talk to me either.
[ so vash is gonna have to be the one stuck in the middle!! he is not communicative enough to try and fix this situation. ]
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[ Vash does think it would be better if they talked and that he's a bad messenger. Still... Communication is incredibly important.
He will give this an attempt for whenever he thinks she's ready to listen. ]