If you feel bad about it, that's - [his brow furrows, his words getting weighed in real time] ... It's not enough for me, but I'd rather know how you feel about it, if that makes sense.
I disagree with you - but it's only because of what we are. Because we spent so much of existence not being able to make choices, it stings extra to have one more taken even after we've had these forms. But... that's your choice.
[to take away agency from someone else. even if it bothers buzen, it's not like he can't see the logic of it. he knows, logically, that it's only harder for him to let go of it because it's matsui.]
... talk to him about it then. As long as you don't lie, I won't get any angrier. Even if you're used to it, I don't want to be mad at you, Va-san.
I think we're just different. If someone could stop me from hurting others, no matter what I'm feeling at the time, I'd want that. No one could do that for me back at home... People have made me into a weapon against my will before and I've killed many people. [ It takes him a moment because it's incredibly difficult for him to not blame himself. It's hard not to when you're the source of catastrophic events, even though you had no control. Of all things, Vash knows what it feels like to be stripped of agency and body autonomy. ] They made me kill many people. Very little could stop me back then.
It's not an excuse. As you said, it's a choice. I didn't want to see more violence, that's it.
[ He's firm on this. ]
I'll definitely talk to him, but your choice to be mad is yours. Whatever happens, happens.
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Well, I don't want you to lie.
If you feel bad about it, that's - [his brow furrows, his words getting weighed in real time] ... It's not enough for me, but I'd rather know how you feel about it, if that makes sense.
I disagree with you - but it's only because of what we are. Because we spent so much of existence not being able to make choices, it stings extra to have one more taken even after we've had these forms. But... that's your choice.
[to take away agency from someone else. even if it bothers buzen, it's not like he can't see the logic of it. he knows, logically, that it's only harder for him to let go of it because it's matsui.]
... talk to him about it then. As long as you don't lie, I won't get any angrier. Even if you're used to it, I don't want to be mad at you, Va-san.
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It's not an excuse. As you said, it's a choice. I didn't want to see more violence, that's it.
[ He's firm on this. ]
I'll definitely talk to him, but your choice to be mad is yours. Whatever happens, happens.