[ he has no way of know that's what wolfwood said to her earlier. he has no way of knowing how 'no' was not a perfectly fine answer for her to give, that such a straightforward refusal was a privilege she was not allowed before. she's guarded about a lot of things, for a long of reasons, so she can't really be mad at him for not knowing. but she still feels boxed in, cornered, like she's wrong for feeling this way why is she the only one who feels like this. Is she going crazy? Has she really lost her mind? Why is this the thing she's getting so much push back for?
she wants to yell at him, but she doesn't. ]
There is nothing you can say that is going to make me feel better about it. There is nothing you can do that is going to make me feel better about it. Gerard is dead anyway, and it still doesn't make me feel any better about it. I just want her back. I saw the texts! Netzach showed me! I know about the stupid points! That doesn't change the fact that no one on that team even pretended that they were doing it for- what? A noble cause? Is that what you think? You think I'm going to be okay with our teammate dying, the killer getting away with it, and then they go on and kill another one of my friends so they could get away with it again? Let's just all kill innocent teams like last week then, Vash! Then we'll win! Then it won't be a problem anymore! Or should we just give up and let Froggystyle kill everyone I care about because they have good reasons for it and I'm going to hurt their fucking feelings again?
[ He never said it was okay, that any of it is, but in the grand scheme of things they are just pawns on a gameboard forced into these altercations and situations that stir tragedy like this... As she keeps talking, his countenance falls, apologetic and morose.
In the end, he just doesn't have it in his heart to let pain fester into anger. He's only capable of sorrow, dark, deep, and vast. That is something he will keep to himself, especially because Nahri is letting all of her feelings out. ]
I know there's nothing I can say or do, and that staying by your side will never be enough.
[ He's an optimist, an idealist, but he isn't blind to reality. There's a sigh. ]
If you're planning to act, I want you to go with a clear head. [ ... ] And to rely on us, if there's anything we can do.
[ realistically, she knows. froggystyle is playing the game. everyone here is. she said it last night - she does not believe gerard had done it to be cruel. but the more she gets boxed in with her feelings, how she's supposed to feel, what she's supposed to say, like there's only one right answer... she can't help but bash herself against those barriers and lash out. ]
I'm not. That's what everyone is going to expect of me, isn't it? That I'm going to do something to them because I was angry that they might get away. They didn't this time. There's nothing more that can be done.
But if you think so lowly of me just-- leave me alone, Vash!
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she wants to yell at him, but she doesn't. ]
There is nothing you can say that is going to make me feel better about it. There is nothing you can do that is going to make me feel better about it. Gerard is dead anyway, and it still doesn't make me feel any better about it. I just want her back. I saw the texts! Netzach showed me! I know about the stupid points! That doesn't change the fact that no one on that team even pretended that they were doing it for- what? A noble cause? Is that what you think? You think I'm going to be okay with our teammate dying, the killer getting away with it, and then they go on and kill another one of my friends so they could get away with it again? Let's just all kill innocent teams like last week then, Vash! Then we'll win! Then it won't be a problem anymore! Or should we just give up and let Froggystyle kill everyone I care about because they have good reasons for it and I'm going to hurt their fucking feelings again?
[ she doesn't yell at him.
but she is pissed. ]
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In the end, he just doesn't have it in his heart to let pain fester into anger. He's only capable of sorrow, dark, deep, and vast. That is something he will keep to himself, especially because Nahri is letting all of her feelings out. ]
I know there's nothing I can say or do, and that staying by your side will never be enough.
[ He's an optimist, an idealist, but he isn't blind to reality. There's a sigh. ]
If you're planning to act, I want you to go with a clear head. [ ... ] And to rely on us, if there's anything we can do.
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I'm not. That's what everyone is going to expect of me, isn't it? That I'm going to do something to them because I was angry that they might get away. They didn't this time. There's nothing more that can be done.
But if you think so lowly of me just-- leave me alone, Vash!
[ and she storms off. bye. ]