[ sweats... profusely... Most of his hair is black now except for a stripe of blond at the front, but she may ruffle under the tent. She's allowed. ]
That's good with me. [ A nod. ] Despite, you know, using the team psych on Wolfwood and Shenhe... I do want people to have a choice. I didn't get a lot of choices at home—a lot was decided for me by humans and my brother.
[ Sometimes... You lack autonomy almost all your life. ]
I don't want you to feel like you have to hold back your thoughts, opinions, and feelings. I want to listen to them. It doesn't matter if we don't see eye to eye on some things. What's important is that we understand each other... No pressure, though. I just wanted you to know that.
[ WELP??? she'll still gonna ruffle tho since she is permitted. ]
Funny you should say that. Because when I was kidnapped, I was forced into a life I didn't ask for... and it came with a lot of responsibilities and no opportunity to say no. It did not matter what my thoughts or opinions were. They were already decided for me, but they expected me to feel that way regardless. There was always pushback and telling me how bad I was at my job, and I should be doing better, since that's what the expectation was.
[ it didn't get her to shut up, but it did get her put into a proverbial tiny box with no way of escape. so she'd bash herself against the invisible walls as they watched her writhe. ]
[ Unfortunately, still not too unfamiliar to what he has seen. No Man's Land may be funny Wild West in space, but it's also full of slavers. Humans have fallen to the brinks of civilization to survive, barely building themselves back up only to be torn back down. Still, his heart hurts to hear that she was like so many was trapped. ]
I don't think I need to say it, but here you should have more choices. There are things we can't control, too... But I think there's something weirdly freeing about this place.
[ Or home is just shitty for both of them, unfortunately. ]
[ home really is that shitty for the both of them, though in vastly different ways. ]
You have half of a point. We don't have the same... problems, as where we came from. But I think things are hard in a different way. I have more freedom to choose, but I'm still getting less than great reactions to what I choose to do.
[ her fingers tease lower, to his temples. this is more a fidget-stress-reliever for her now. ]
...I'd rather be here than where I was before, though.
[ ... Vash doesn't say where he may wish to be. A part of him still harbors dark thoughts, those that wish for him to chase after the dark night. To follow after the ghosts he holds dear. Another part of him loves life too much because that is where kindness is, that is where love waits, even if it's in the future and not the present.
He does have those weird strands that refuse to be gelled up, fringes that fall down like little antennae. She may fidget spinner those. ]
If we are able to pick where to go, I'd invite you to No Man's Land. Not that it's great... But it should be better than I left it.
That sounds nice. [ A smile, genuine though listless. ] Very tempting, too.
I just don't know if we'd be able to leave everyone behind. Family's there and... I don't know how to feel knowing I left to a better place when everyone else is suffering.
[ she can't fault him for feeling like that. at this point she doesn't know about his FAMILY!!! but she understands, to some extent, those feelings of guilt. ]
Well, the offer is open, should things change. [ she really did just invite herself to liyue too... ]
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That's good with me. [ A nod. ] Despite, you know, using the team psych on Wolfwood and Shenhe... I do want people to have a choice. I didn't get a lot of choices at home—a lot was decided for me by humans and my brother.
[ Sometimes... You lack autonomy almost all your life. ]
I don't want you to feel like you have to hold back your thoughts, opinions, and feelings. I want to listen to them. It doesn't matter if we don't see eye to eye on some things. What's important is that we understand each other... No pressure, though. I just wanted you to know that.
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Funny you should say that. Because when I was kidnapped, I was forced into a life I didn't ask for... and it came with a lot of responsibilities and no opportunity to say no. It did not matter what my thoughts or opinions were. They were already decided for me, but they expected me to feel that way regardless. There was always pushback and telling me how bad I was at my job, and I should be doing better, since that's what the expectation was.
[ it didn't get her to shut up, but it did get her put into a proverbial tiny box with no way of escape. so she'd bash herself against the invisible walls as they watched her writhe. ]
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[ Unfortunately, still not too unfamiliar to what he has seen. No Man's Land may be funny Wild West in space, but it's also full of slavers. Humans have fallen to the brinks of civilization to survive, barely building themselves back up only to be torn back down. Still, his heart hurts to hear that she was like so many was trapped. ]
I don't think I need to say it, but here you should have more choices. There are things we can't control, too... But I think there's something weirdly freeing about this place.
[ Or home is just shitty for both of them, unfortunately. ]
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You have half of a point. We don't have the same... problems, as where we came from. But I think things are hard in a different way. I have more freedom to choose, but I'm still getting less than great reactions to what I choose to do.
[ her fingers tease lower, to his temples. this is more a fidget-stress-reliever for her now. ]
...I'd rather be here than where I was before, though.
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[ ... Vash doesn't say where he may wish to be. A part of him still harbors dark thoughts, those that wish for him to chase after the dark night. To follow after the ghosts he holds dear. Another part of him loves life too much because that is where kindness is, that is where love waits, even if it's in the future and not the present.
He does have those weird strands that refuse to be gelled up, fringes that fall down like little antennae. She may fidget spinner those. ]
If we are able to pick where to go, I'd invite you to No Man's Land. Not that it's great... But it should be better than I left it.
[ Navel-gazing. ]
Or maybe you'll head to Teyvat.
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You sound so certain. [ she's teasing, a little. she appreciates his positive spin, despite everything. ]
You could always come with us, you know. You and Wolfwood both.
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That sounds nice. [ A smile, genuine though listless. ] Very tempting, too.
I just don't know if we'd be able to leave everyone behind. Family's there and... I don't know how to feel knowing I left to a better place when everyone else is suffering.
[ It's the guilt of things. ]
Still very tempting, though!
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Well, the offer is open, should things change. [ she really did just invite herself to liyue too... ]
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[ Genuinely, and confidently, he will. ]