... I think it was. When he passed—it seemed peaceful.
[ Vash thinks about it, the body he held—carried... And buried in a coffin, carved with a cross, and left near that church. At least Wolfwood did not suffer in his last moments, at least too terribly.
Yeah. The Light that we finally managed to make-- it was meant to be spread for seven full days, but because she intervened in the end, it only shined over the world for three.
...we were trying to help restore what humanity lost. Now we have to gather the seeds it did manage to plant, if we want to do it right.
Nah, not the sun. It's... I can't call it metaphorical, because it's real, but...
Most people have lost the light in their souls. What we've been trying to do is restore it-- to end all of the needless suffering and death in the City.
[ The thing that makes souls Good and it's necessary piece to every human. Vash doesn't know. he isn't a good christian. not even sure if he can be christian. ]
Wait, if it only shined three—even just seven, does this mean you guys have to keep... Doing your jobs, just to have the Light shine over the world for a lifetime?
[iirc christianity exists in his universe but man, he sure isn't one.]
It's whatever lets a person hope for more. To do better. To have real dreams and desires and truly want to live, not just exist the way they think they have to.
We only have to do it once, as long as it lasts all seven days. What we're doing is just... planting the seeds of that light. Everything isn't going to change suddenly overnight, but it'll grow over time.
[ This makes more sense to him... And he's glad that Netzach doesn't need to keep harvesting guests to upkeep the Light.
It doesn't make him feel any better, though. He's sympathetic. He's worried. It kind of makes sense why Netzach acts how he does, but maybe the dude is just that way. ]
That's awful, Netzach. I'm sorry.
[ Sometimes you have to do harm for the greater good. ]
[there is a good chance that he's just that way, yeah.]
I don't know. I wish there were. Maybe it doesn't have to end in death like that, but... if there's another way, then I don't think we know it. We still have to gather the bits of the light that were spread on those three days.
...I don't know. I like getting to meet everyone and learn about where they're from, and seeing new places here, too. I don't think I'll regret that, whatever happens. But it's...
It's still pretty similar. It still has to end in death, one way or another.
We've been placing crosses at the single tree by the first park, just to remember them. Freshen them each week. I know it's mostly to console ourselves, but it's... Something.
... I'd like to think you're right, I just- don't know if it'll be that kind to us and to them, you know? But if we could, I'd like to see some of them again.
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...but it still sucks. Even if it sounds like it was for something that was-- hopefully worth it, for him.
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[ Vash thinks about it, the body he held—carried... And buried in a coffin, carved with a cross, and left near that church. At least Wolfwood did not suffer in his last moments, at least too terribly.
... ]
It'd be a lie to say I don't have regrets.
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[some small solace, in the scope of it.]
But- I think we do all end up with regrets. I ended up thinking pretty often: what could I have changed to save people?
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[ So he gets it. ]
Do you mind if I ask?
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[well. pigs can help with this! it's a form of answer, at the least.]
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[ Is this what he's understanding from this memory? He's distraught at the thought, pained that this is Netzach's responsibility. ]
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[things they never wanted to do, for the sake of a goal.]
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[ Is it worth it? What is this?? ]
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...we were trying to help restore what humanity lost. Now we have to gather the seeds it did manage to plant, if we want to do it right.
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What is this Light, exactly. I can't imagine it's the sun. You'd all just die without it.
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Most people have lost the light in their souls. What we've been trying to do is restore it-- to end all of the needless suffering and death in the City.
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[ The thing that makes souls Good and it's necessary piece to every human. Vash doesn't know. he isn't a good christian. not even sure if he can be christian. ]
Wait, if it only shined three—even just seven, does this mean you guys have to keep... Doing your jobs, just to have the Light shine over the world for a lifetime?
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[iirc christianity exists in his universe but man, he sure isn't one.]
It's whatever lets a person hope for more. To do better. To have real dreams and desires and truly want to live, not just exist the way they think they have to.
We only have to do it once, as long as it lasts all seven days. What we're doing is just... planting the seeds of that light. Everything isn't going to change suddenly overnight, but it'll grow over time.
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It doesn't make him feel any better, though. He's sympathetic. He's worried. It kind of makes sense why Netzach acts how he does, but maybe the dude is just that way. ]
That's awful, Netzach. I'm sorry.
[ Sometimes you have to do harm for the greater good. ]
Is there really no other way?
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I don't know. I wish there were. Maybe it doesn't have to end in death like that, but... if there's another way, then I don't think we know it. We still have to gather the bits of the light that were spread on those three days.
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[ Vash is sure he'd never survive a responsibility like that. ]
... I don't believe there is only one solution or one process, but—hard to consider when we're here.
[ Dead. ]
Do you prefer this?
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It's still pretty similar. It still has to end in death, one way or another.
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In that regard, it is. But it's a little bit less of a burden on you, or so I'd hope.
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[ He closes his eyes. ]
We've been placing crosses at the single tree by the first park, just to remember them. Freshen them each week. I know it's mostly to console ourselves, but it's... Something.
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It's fine if it's just to console ourselves. We're the ones who are left, right? Gotta keep going somehow.
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... You don't think they may be out there, somewhere?
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... I'd like to think you're right, I just- don't know if it'll be that kind to us and to them, you know? But if we could, I'd like to see some of them again.
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