... I think anyone would be worried after those missions, Yuzuriha. I never talked about it in too much detail, but mine played on some of my fears. In the moment, it was... Rough.
[ There were so many bodies... And I did that to all of them. He shakes his head rapidly to try to also shake away those thoughts. ]
[ she gives vash's hand a squeeze and just. sort of puts her other hand to her face like what the hell is wrong with my eyes. it's gotta be a curse. ]
...I'm sorry, Vash. [ you probably don't need me to say this, but your fears don't define you. ] That's... really awful.
[ she really isn't trying to relive her fake memories, but they drift to her thoughts anyway, intermittent pieces he might accidentally catch—of her crewmates dying in front of her, of their only home burning up around them. they aren't necessarily targeted fears, per se, but still fears in the way all tragedies are.
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[ There were so many bodies... And I did that to all of them. He shakes his head rapidly to try to also shake away those thoughts. ]
It's okay to cry, you know?
[ Or is that a mission curse... ]
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...I'm sorry, Vash. [ you probably don't need me to say this, but your fears don't define you. ] That's... really awful.
[ she really isn't trying to relive her fake memories, but they drift to her thoughts anyway, intermittent pieces he might accidentally catch—of her crewmates dying in front of her, of their only home burning up around them. they aren't necessarily targeted fears, per se, but still fears in the way all tragedies are.
but... she understands they're not real. ]
...I know. I just don't want to cry.
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[ Like he's used to having to face his fears, that they repeat every once in a while in his long lifetime. It happens.
Oh. Reading these thoughts, he frowns. ]
If you think about it, if you cry alone and no one sees, then it's like you never cried at all!
[ HAHA? ]
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...Somehow that sounds even more sad.
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[ HE'S RIGHT ABOUT THIS, AT LEAST HE THINKS SO. ]
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[ ...she is leaning against him now, and puts her head on his shoulder. ]
...Thanks, but this is enough for now.
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[ He will let her do that... I'm guessing they're indoors somewhere so they can be warm. ]
Did you also want me to tune the thoughts out? I kind of got some sense earlier, but...
[ I get that not everyone wants to talk. ]