I just - everything Nahri said about me is basically not wrong. People feel bad for me, but I'm awful and it's my fault Yakumo died. But it's horrible here and things are complicated and I can't take that back but I'm not going to get Wolfwood killed over a lighter just to save my own team even if I do think he did it.
This is a lot for a twelve year-old to think about!
[ A small little haha, but it's also very real. ]
You were trying to protect your own—and as you said, all of this is complicated... More points, more revivals, save people, and save more. I wish it wasn't like this because I think all of us could have been good friends.
[haha. she doesn't protest that. but it does break her heart a little, when he says they could have been friends.]
...Yeah. [...] I won't yell at Nahri anymore, Vash. I know it's not fair. I know she's just sad about Shenhe. And I was just sad about Gerard, but she didn't know that.
We all grieve differently and cope differently. I'm still sad about everyone erased so far. [ ... ] Shenhe called me her friend and cornered me to say it back. It reminded me of how little friends I had and how grateful I was to meet her.
The point is, everyone is hurting. It doesn't give her a pass to lash out and take shots like that. We can all be forceful and firm without needing to be mean.
[ But it doesn't mean he's undermining what Nahri feels. ]
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[so, twins.]
I just - everything Nahri said about me is basically not wrong. People feel bad for me, but I'm awful and it's my fault Yakumo died. But it's horrible here and things are complicated and I can't take that back but I'm not going to get Wolfwood killed over a lighter just to save my own team even if I do think he did it.
That's all.
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[ A small little haha, but it's also very real. ]
You were trying to protect your own—and as you said, all of this is complicated... More points, more revivals, save people, and save more. I wish it wasn't like this because I think all of us could have been good friends.
It sucks.
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...Yeah. [...] I won't yell at Nahri anymore, Vash. I know it's not fair. I know she's just sad about Shenhe. And I was just sad about Gerard, but she didn't know that.
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The point is, everyone is hurting. It doesn't give her a pass to lash out and take shots like that. We can all be forceful and firm without needing to be mean.
[ But it doesn't mean he's undermining what Nahri feels. ]
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[she's very, very sad about it. and a little bit angry about it, too, but it's too late to be angry and she doesn't want to be.]
Anyway, I just mean that I - I'll try to work on whether I'm being mean, mainly. And I'll leave her alone.
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Thanks, Ylfa. I appreciate that.
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[it's nice of him. even though this conversation is hard, and even if they aren't able to be friends.]
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[ vash is legitimately a bad team player ]
Thanks for letting me be here.