[ she smiles at him, steepling her fingers together. ] Because, Vash, you may have forgotten, but only four people have the ability to influence the feelings of others. Two of them are currently under that influence, and I know it wasn't me who did it. And you have to understand why I don't think either of them would do it to themselves.
she isn't even mad. the ominous :) energy softens a little. ]
Vash... I understand that you want to help him and that you care about him. But you took away Shenhe's choice. [ she actually gently touches his arm to emphasize that she isn't upset with him. ] What do you think is going to happen once it wears off?
[ With her this close, she can probably see that it doesn't seem like he's gotten a lot of sleep, but that's what he gets for sleeping outside last night. ]
... For Wolfwood, to see that he's capable of more. Of better. [ ... ] I'd like him to realize it's better to let me go.
... Maybe for Snowie it would be an experience she can compare to in the future? You're right I took away her choice. I'll apologize later when it wears off.
This might be hard to believe, but I understand. I've been on the other side of it. [ her hand is still on his arm. she isn't using her psych but man, she wishes she could imbue him with soothe. ] Everyone deserves a choice, Vash, and that means Wolfwood too.
[ HE'S GOING TO SLEEP OUTSIDE TONIGHT TOO. There's a hum, but it's hard to know if it's affirming or not.
It's hard to let people make what he perceives to be the wrong choice, but... ]
You do? But you're such a good person to be around. [ Vash truly thinks every person is full of so much good, even if the bad is there. ] You're worthy.
[ she shakes her head. then she takes one of his hands in both of hers. ] Sometimes things just don't work out the way we want. [ this is some serious bummer territory for her but she is still pushing on: ] He decided what was best for me, even after I told him how I felt. He took away my choice. Don't do the same thing he did.
[ Somehow he holds it together. He understands, in that respect... Nahri deserves to be able to choose her own path. He knows—he has let humans make their choices, but.
When those choices involve him. ]
... But I'm a monster.
[ It's different because he's not like humans, not even a nice and well-behaved other being. No, he's a monster. ]
Listen. I've had enough of you - all of you - on this team dwelling on the inhuman parts of yourself, or whatever problems you think make you less than human. [ what a time to say this during insecurity week, but this has existed beyond this week, so. ] It's not a good enough excuse to decide how Wolfwood should feel about you, or how anyone should feel about you.
I can't fix whatever it is about yourself that you don't like. But don't for one damn minute think I'm going to let you sit here and act like you're the worst person here. Don't you want to do better? You can do better.
[ For so long, he has been trying to atone and repent for his sins (catholic), but Nahri really is here with a team that's so focused on their inhuman parts, except Vash truly doesn't see any human in him. Especially now, he is being reminded of how different he is.
Damn, he doesn't feel like he deserves her kind words or her comfort. ]
But it doesn't change how much blood is on my hands. [ ... ] If you knew, you'd want me gone, too.
[ And he does want to be gone. He wishes he could disappear from the plane of existence. He wishes everyone would forget him. NAHRI DOESN'T DESERVE THIS, but he really is having a breakdown because of insecurities. ]
[ she's a little sad-looking, maybe, but she tries to keep an even composure. ]
I just want you to know that you don't have to be that person. It- It doesn't change what happened, I know, and I'm sorry for-- for whatever happened. But you're not the monster that you think you are. I don't think... you want to be one. So you don't have to be.
[ Vash has more of his composure than before, now a little ashamed to have lost it in front of her. There are more thoughts, but he keeps them to himself.
His hand which is fretfully taken by hers decides to hold on with a firm grip, some confidence renewed. He doesn't know if those are the words he deserves to hear, but they're for him right now.
He can try to respect that. ]
Thank you... And I'm sorry to hear about him and what he did to you.
[ It does make him reconsider his love arrows on Wolfwood and Shenhe, if only a bit. ]
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Hey, Nahri. What's up?
[ he's a bit nervous, but he'll hear her out. ]
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And are you feeling strange - [ ... ] - stranger than usual?
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[ He can only defend himself on one front for now. He'll touch the second question in a bit. ]
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The least you could do is explain why.
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Which leads to a soft smile, sweet yet listless. ]
... I guess I just wanted to see him happy, even if it's temporary. [ ... ] I never had the chance to see it back at home.
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she isn't even mad. the ominous :) energy softens a little. ]
Vash... I understand that you want to help him and that you care about him. But you took away Shenhe's choice. [ she actually gently touches his arm to emphasize that she isn't upset with him. ] What do you think is going to happen once it wears off?
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... For Wolfwood, to see that he's capable of more. Of better. [ ... ] I'd like him to realize it's better to let me go.
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[ He rubs his neck and laughs... ]
... Maybe for Snowie it would be an experience she can compare to in the future? You're right I took away her choice. I'll apologize later when it wears off.
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This might be hard to believe, but I understand. I've been on the other side of it. [ her hand is still on his arm. she isn't using her psych but man, she wishes she could imbue him with soothe. ] Everyone deserves a choice, Vash, and that means Wolfwood too.
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It's hard to let people make what he perceives to be the wrong choice, but... ]
You do? But you're such a good person to be around. [ Vash truly thinks every person is full of so much good, even if the bad is there. ] You're worthy.
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When those choices involve him. ]
... But I'm a monster.
[ It's different because he's not like humans, not even a nice and well-behaved other being. No, he's a monster. ]
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[ you will NOT pity party when she is pity partying. it is a party of one and she's already here!!! STOP ]
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that worked.
anyway. ]
Listen. I've had enough of you - all of you - on this team dwelling on the inhuman parts of yourself, or whatever problems you think make you less than human. [ what a time to say this during insecurity week, but this has existed beyond this week, so. ] It's not a good enough excuse to decide how Wolfwood should feel about you, or how anyone should feel about you.
I can't fix whatever it is about yourself that you don't like. But don't for one damn minute think I'm going to let you sit here and act like you're the worst person here. Don't you want to do better? You can do better.
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[ For so long, he has been trying to atone and repent for his sins (catholic), but Nahri really is here with a team that's so focused on their inhuman parts, except Vash truly doesn't see any human in him. Especially now, he is being reminded of how different he is.
Damn, he doesn't feel like he deserves her kind words or her comfort. ]
But it doesn't change how much blood is on my hands. [ ... ] If you knew, you'd want me gone, too.
[ And he does want to be gone. He wishes he could disappear from the plane of existence. He wishes everyone would forget him. NAHRI DOESN'T DESERVE THIS, but he really is having a breakdown because of insecurities. ]
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The man I loved killed thousands of people.
[ sorry, vash, this isn't going to work on her. ]
Is that something you feel guilty about? Is that something you want to atone for?
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Then it dawns on him how odd this is, how uncomfortable he feels in the midst of anxiety and guilt. He never would have wanted people to know. ]
I'm not sure what's gotten into me.
[ ... ]
You ended up sharing something personal to console me... Really, I'm sorry.
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It's okay.
[ she's a little sad-looking, maybe, but she tries to keep an even composure. ]
I just want you to know that you don't have to be that person. It- It doesn't change what happened, I know, and I'm sorry for-- for whatever happened. But you're not the monster that you think you are. I don't think... you want to be one. So you don't have to be.
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His hand which is fretfully taken by hers decides to hold on with a firm grip, some confidence renewed. He doesn't know if those are the words he deserves to hear, but they're for him right now.
He can try to respect that. ]
Thank you... And I'm sorry to hear about him and what he did to you.
[ It does make him reconsider his love arrows on Wolfwood and Shenhe, if only a bit. ]
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I'll survive. I want you too as well.
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I don't know if I will when the team psych expires.
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Whatever happens between you and Wolfwood is in the hands of God.
[ yeah i made this joke earlier but SHE MEANS IT FOR REAL ]
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