[Thinks about my thread with Lowe and gazes into the Trigun abyss.
Anyway, Kaveh shakes his head.]
You don't have to worry about something like that. [Not in the least because he feels like his own traumas are so insignificant in comparison. But also--] I'll always listen to anything you want to tell me.
[Even if it's depressing or horrific. He'd promised he wouldn't be afraid, after all. And it's not like he doesn't understand the multitude of reasons Vash wouldn't want to get into it, but he doesn't want "making Kaveh uncomfortable" to be one of them.]
[ Focusing on someone else's hurts really makes it easier to deal with your own, doesn't it. They're here trying to fight each other emotionally. ]
Uhm... That memory is very significant for you, Kaveh. I don't know if I can't worry, but I can tell you more about my brother. I say he's handled because he probably died with me.
[ At least, that's what Vash thinks? He isn't sure. ]
Even if he's alive, his hair is black, which should mean he's out of energy.
[IT REALLY IS EMOTIONAL FISTICUFFS both of them just this
ALSO OF ALL THE WILD THINGS I EXPECTED FROM TRIGUN IT WAS NOT HAIR LORE. HELP.]
...It is. [He'll concede that much.] It's just--I'm not sure what I'd say about it. That was over twenty years ago.
[Which may seem like the blink of an eye for people who live for centuries, but to him, it's an old wound. It's a memory he dwells on so often that he thinks he's picked it apart from every possible angle.
But he hums softly, mulling that over. He doesn't yet know that they're going to have to revisit this conversation. That is perhaps a Thursday PC sort of conversation, unless you are on a CYOA, which I suspect you are. :beegun:]
So if you make it back from here, and you find out he's alive... you don't think he'll be a threat?
... I hope you don't blame yourself, Kaveh. So much of life is out of our control.
[ It's advice that he wished he could take himself, honestly, but circumstances and other stuff stops him. In the end, Vash at least believes this wholeheartedly. Sometimes... Events happen and there's nothing they could have done to stop them.
HeHEHE. CYOA. ]
Without energy, he's as dangerous as any other guy without abilities. It's... Easier.
But... mm. Kaveh looks away, because he knows people don't like to hear these things--but. Well. It's Vash, so he'll be honest.]
It is, but... ultimately, it was my fault. Other factors contributed to his death, but the fundamental cause was still me.
[There's simply no way around that, as far as he's concerned. If he hadn't pushed his father to participate in the Championship, his father would still be alive. It's as simple as that.
He's quiet for a moment, then, taking in the rest of what Vash says. He still doesn't like to hear it, really; "easier" could mean a lot of things, but it can't possibly be easier on Vash's heart, he knows. Kaveh can't even begin to imagine how complicated his emotions must be about all of this.]
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Anyway, Kaveh shakes his head.]
You don't have to worry about something like that. [Not in the least because he feels like his own traumas are so insignificant in comparison. But also--] I'll always listen to anything you want to tell me.
[Even if it's depressing or horrific. He'd promised he wouldn't be afraid, after all. And it's not like he doesn't understand the multitude of reasons Vash wouldn't want to get into it, but he doesn't want "making Kaveh uncomfortable" to be one of them.]
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Uhm... That memory is very significant for you, Kaveh. I don't know if I can't worry, but I can tell you more about my brother. I say he's handled because he probably died with me.
[ At least, that's what Vash thinks? He isn't sure. ]
Even if he's alive, his hair is black, which should mean he's out of energy.
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ALSO OF ALL THE WILD THINGS I EXPECTED FROM TRIGUN IT WAS NOT HAIR LORE. HELP.]
...It is. [He'll concede that much.] It's just--I'm not sure what I'd say about it. That was over twenty years ago.
[Which may seem like the blink of an eye for people who live for centuries, but to him, it's an old wound. It's a memory he dwells on so often that he thinks he's picked it apart from every possible angle.
But he hums softly, mulling that over. He doesn't yet know that they're going to have to revisit this conversation. That is perhaps a Thursday PC sort of conversation, unless you are on a CYOA, which I suspect you are. :beegun:]
So if you make it back from here, and you find out he's alive... you don't think he'll be a threat?
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[ It's advice that he wished he could take himself, honestly, but circumstances and other stuff stops him. In the end, Vash at least believes this wholeheartedly. Sometimes... Events happen and there's nothing they could have done to stop them.
HeHEHE. CYOA. ]
Without energy, he's as dangerous as any other guy without abilities. It's... Easier.
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But... mm. Kaveh looks away, because he knows people don't like to hear these things--but. Well. It's Vash, so he'll be honest.]
It is, but... ultimately, it was my fault. Other factors contributed to his death, but the fundamental cause was still me.
[There's simply no way around that, as far as he's concerned. If he hadn't pushed his father to participate in the Championship, his father would still be alive. It's as simple as that.
He's quiet for a moment, then, taking in the rest of what Vash says. He still doesn't like to hear it, really; "easier" could mean a lot of things, but it can't possibly be easier on Vash's heart, he knows. Kaveh can't even begin to imagine how complicated his emotions must be about all of this.]
Could he regain that energy?