[It does help, honestly. He smiles slightly--though he closes his eyes shortly after, his expression growing a little pinched, like he's got a headache or something.]
[Which is probably the only reason he's been able to fight it off, rather than just like. Knocking himself out with alcohol even though it's murder night.]
[EVERYONE REALLY SAID "HEI MUST SUFFER AND VASH GETS TO BE CAUGHT IN THE CROSSFIRE"
That makes the corner of his mouth lift, though; he doesn't really have the energy to smile, but it's something.]
Don't fight Wolfwood. [But it's not really a scolding. Really, it's more like--latching onto the thought of something tangibly connected to this place. Something to focus on before he thinks back to his first CYOA.] ...We went back to Teyvat. Nahida, Setsu, Matsui, and I.
[He's quiet for a moment, because it's sad, realizing that only he and Nahida are left.]
[Vashwood can stay divorced because it's keeping them alive!!!!]
Mm. It seems like it was drawn from her experiences. [Sad... their bird...] After I got back... I'm not sure how to describe it. I said a lot of things without any hesitation at all--things I normally never would have. [Which really fucking sucked WEEK 1!!!] And I couldn't feel pain for a little while.
Yes, I think so. [He hadn't learned about her ropes until after her death, but. It makes a little more sense, in hindsight.] We were children, for part of it. [...] I saw my mother. Or--what I thought was my mother.
[He's pretty sure it was an illusion or something now. But it took a while to get there.]
It wasn't like that this time. I didn't really see people I knew in the same way. I remembered this place, but it felt like we'd been there for ages, even before the loops really began.
[ ... Not Kaveh's mother, long gone, showing up again. Vash gently places his hand on Kaveh's shoulder, but tries not to talk more about it. Sometimes... Fresh mother trauma. ]
What's with the trips this week making you guys all feel like it took forever?
I wish I knew. I heard the other group lived through a hundred years or so. [He doesn't know they went to NML] Kazuki mentioned that he thought he'd lived a whole separate life, when he went.
[Which isn't quite the same thing but. Bad trend.]
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[ HEL:P??? ]
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We couldn't do anything to it directly. We had to destroy its eggs... but then we went through the portal, and we... made it back here.
[Kind of. He thinks.]
...I keep waiting for it to start over again.
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[ Gives Kaveh's shoulder a light squeeze, hoping this will ground him. ]
You're here.
[ Whether that's a good thing or not, Vash doesn't say. ]
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Right. No more.
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[ He watches Kaveh's expression, tilting his head over the shift. ]
Something up?
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I keep hearing...
[He shakes his head.]
It's... from the facility, I think.
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I hope they're not too distracting. Whatever I was going through lasted until the end of trial, I think.
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[Which is probably the only reason he's been able to fight it off, rather than just like. Knocking himself out with alcohol even though it's murder night.]
It's not as bad as the first time.
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[ i had the worst couple of weeks in this game i tell you ]
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That makes the corner of his mouth lift, though; he doesn't really have the energy to smile, but it's something.]
Don't fight Wolfwood. [But it's not really a scolding. Really, it's more like--latching onto the thought of something tangibly connected to this place. Something to focus on before he thinks back to his first CYOA.] ...We went back to Teyvat. Nahida, Setsu, Matsui, and I.
[He's quiet for a moment, because it's sad, realizing that only he and Nahida are left.]
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[ bro. Anyway... Damn. He's listless because it really is half of that cyoa group wiped, then also the holder of that memory. A nod. ]
Shenhe told me a bit about it.
[ Sad. ]
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Mm. It seems like it was drawn from her experiences. [Sad... their bird...] After I got back... I'm not sure how to describe it. I said a lot of things without any hesitation at all--things I normally never would have. [Which really fucking sucked WEEK 1!!!] And I couldn't feel pain for a little while.
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[ The homicidal bondage. ]
It must have sucked pretty bad. Shenhe maneuvered social interaction pretty well, but that comes with practice with her predicament.
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[He's pretty sure it was an illusion or something now. But it took a while to get there.]
It wasn't like that this time. I didn't really see people I knew in the same way. I remembered this place, but it felt like we'd been there for ages, even before the loops really began.
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What's with the trips this week making you guys all feel like it took forever?
[ THE COINCIDENCE? ]
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I wish I knew. I heard the other group lived through a hundred years or so. [He doesn't know they went to NML] Kazuki mentioned that he thought he'd lived a whole separate life, when he went.
[Which isn't quite the same thing but. Bad trend.]
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[ (whispers) what the fuck ]