Don't say unfortunately... [HE'LL WORRY ABOUT IT!!! Though he's also saying that because he knew that, and because he's happy for Shenhe and Nahri. But also x2 WHY ARE YOU BOTH ALLERGIC. EXHAUSTING.
But... well. Yet another reason Kaveh never said anything is because he, similarly, doesn't believe he deserves love. It is, perhaps, part of the reason he's so resistant to Vash's insistence on Alhaitham's feelings; Kaveh already tears himself up over the way he destroyed their relationship, and he's terrified of doing the same to what they have now. If Kaveh deserves anything at all, it's guilt and suffering. Nearly two months of assisting murderers, even well-intentioned ones, certainly did nothing to dissuade him of this belief.
He doesn't think any of that matters with this, though, because he can't imagine Wolfwood being interested in him anyway. There was just a laundry list of reasons he never said or did anything.]
...I did tell him I cared, though. [Just not about the dokis.] He didn't understand why I was willing to help you all.
[Though hilariously that was probably partly because Kaveh seemed like he was ready to march off to NML and try to suckerpunch Knives but y'know. The point stands.]
[ VASH IS DOING HIS BEST. HE HAS MADE HIS CHOICE... And he is working towards building his self-worth at least on that front.
The murders here are a different flavor, so he can't fault the many who raised a blade likewise others who turned a blind eye. They really are just shouldering different levels of guilts. Someone please help.
Unfortunately, Kaveh painted a different picture of how he feels about Alhaitham and their separation. Vash never thought to press too much since Kaveh always seemed confident on anything related to Alhaitham. ]
People don't really do things for free in No Man's Land, so I wouldn't take his comment too personally. [ They're guarded people for reasons. ] If that's the case! I'm glad he knows.
[ Vash isn't going to push for Kaveh to confess unless he wants to, but sometimes it's just good to get things off your chest. ]
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But... well. Yet another reason Kaveh never said anything is because he, similarly, doesn't believe he deserves love. It is, perhaps, part of the reason he's so resistant to Vash's insistence on Alhaitham's feelings; Kaveh already tears himself up over the way he destroyed their relationship, and he's terrified of doing the same to what they have now. If Kaveh deserves anything at all, it's guilt and suffering. Nearly two months of assisting murderers, even well-intentioned ones, certainly did nothing to dissuade him of this belief.
He doesn't think any of that matters with this, though, because he can't imagine Wolfwood being interested in him anyway. There was just a laundry list of reasons he never said or did anything.]
...I did tell him I cared, though. [Just not about the dokis.] He didn't understand why I was willing to help you all.
[Though hilariously that was probably partly because Kaveh seemed like he was ready to march off to NML and try to suckerpunch Knives but y'know. The point stands.]
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The murders here are a different flavor, so he can't fault the many who raised a blade likewise others who turned a blind eye. They really are just shouldering different levels of guilts. Someone please help.
Unfortunately, Kaveh painted a different picture of how he feels about Alhaitham and their separation. Vash never thought to press too much since Kaveh always seemed confident on anything related to Alhaitham. ]
People don't really do things for free in No Man's Land, so I wouldn't take his comment too personally. [ They're guarded people for reasons. ] If that's the case! I'm glad he knows.
[ Vash isn't going to push for Kaveh to confess unless he wants to, but sometimes it's just good to get things off your chest. ]